Herb Kaufman

January 17, 2010

I Have A Pair of Pants….

I have an old pair of pants. That may not sound very exciting to you, but it is to me. You see, I bought these pants when I had lost about 120 pounds. What makes this exciting to me is the fact that they are now ludicrously loose on me. When I wear them in my home, my wife screams at how stupid I look. Yesterday, I went out shopping to a local hardware store wearing them and you should have heard her when I returned. She was worried that they might have fallen down while I was wearing them.

And, the reason that they are so loose is that I have lost another 110 pounds since I bought them. It has taken me almost six years to reach this plateau and I wouldn’t have changed anything I have done. In April of 2004 I had a lap band inserted by Dr. Christine Ren of NYU Medical center and, believe me, it was the best thing I ever did for myself. I weighed (at the time) a staggering 489 pounds. I still weigh 259 pounds, which is large, but not staggering. I think large is much better than staggering, don’t you?

I know that many people, most with gastric bypass and some with the lapband; have lost incredible amounts of weight in extraordinarily short periods of time. I know that some of them have died, perhaps as a result of too rapid a weight loss—I simply do not know. I only know what has worked for me.

If you are mathematically inclined, my weight loss averages out to a little over nine pounds a month. The way I look at it is that it took years (about 50 of them) to put on the weight; therefore it should take a few years to take it off. What reinforces that for me is those ridiculous pair of pants. Everytime I wear them, it reminds me of where I was; where I have been and where I am heading. It works! I have had very few setbacks. Yeah, sometimes (very rarely) I have gained a few pounds. There have been long periods where my weight stabilized and I didn’t lose an ounce. That did not bother me because I had those pair of pants. And I knew the lapband was still working even if I couldn’t see immediate results.

I had other reminders as well—a seat belt extension for my car which I no longer use or need. The fact that I can now wear underwear (which is also getting too loose on me) that I was never able to wear at 489 pounds. Being able to sit at a booth in a diner may not sound like much, but if you can’t do it, you know how exciting that would be. I now wear a size 10 ½ D shoe instead of the size 11 E shoe that I had to wear at 489 pounds.

But my biggest reminder is still those stupid, too-large, shouldn't be worn, pair of pants which incidentally, I am wearing as I write this.

Good habits sometime die hard.